N.E.W.S.

PICTURE OF THE WEEK

Notables this week

On this day one year ago, Lily and I broke up. This day hit me like a ton of bricks. I just remember being like, oh shit, this is happening. That gut punch feeling. The overwhelmed realization that they (her and our dog) will be leaving me. I wanted to throw up. I already had plans for that night to stay in with our pup and just be cozy. I stuck strong with those plans and cried my fucking eyes out. I held my puppy and knew that one day, he will not be around(not his death but because of his parents separating). I remember sitting in my kitchen spiraling about how much of a loser I will be and thought about how lonely I will become. Then something snapped me out of it and something internal grabbed me and let me know that I will be okay. Whatever I was picturing of the worst scenario, I reassured myself that I am way too resilient and optimistic to sit and pout. I found the little flame within and decided to protect that flame knowing that one day it would burn strong again. Here I am a year later and I couldn’t be happier. I would say that flame has now turned into a huge bond fire.

Did that break up suck? Fuck yes it did. It still hurts sometimes to think about but thats okay. She noticed something so beautiful and that was, that she noticed that I don’t do the things that I love because I knew they annoyed her. She noticed I put the things I loved on the back burner because I didn’t want to upset her. And even though I did all those things for her, she still was’t happy. I am beyond thankful for our relationship. She had taught me so much and was there for me during a huge life change (becoming a recovering alcoholic and learning to live life booze free). She was so supportive and even joined me in the not drinking. I am very thankful to have her as my partner during that big life change. But as she put it best during our breakup, we just grew apart. She didn’t want to settle, even though I was okay with just going through the motions. She woken up something in me again. She taught me that its okay to want more. To be better. I have learned to love myself and start living life the way I want to live life. Not the life I think my partner would like.

Its amazing to reflect over this past year of pain and growth. I remember that cold March. She had just moved out at the end of February. Her Eagles had just won the super bowl. I remember She let me watch Auggie one last time, while she went to Philly for the Eagles Super Bowl Parade. That was the last time I saw the Auggie. I doubt I will ever see him again. But thats okay because I know he’s thriving with his momma. She is an amazing mother for Auggie know they snuggling up together somewhere on a cozy couch or bed. That month of March though, I picked up every bar shift I could get my hands on. I didn’t want to stay home. I started taking that pain and putting it into exercise. I ran whenever I felt pain. My god, how much running really helped me stay positive and clear my mind. I stuck with it! At the beginning of the year I was running a 2 mile run with over 11 min splits averaging 22-24min 2 mile runs. My best PR was this November where I did two splits under 8min miles. I ran my best 2 mile run at 16:01 mins. What a jump! I remember in the beginning of the year, my only goal was to be able to finish a 2 mile run without stopping. I had crushed that goal.

So just a reminder for anyone going through it. Its going to be okay. We have the power to change things that don’t make us happy. I wish nothing but the best for everyone and just hope everyone is striving to be better and spread joy to others! Peace and Love! This is going to be a powerful year to come. I am so fucking excited and thankful to have you all along for the journey! Thank you for reading and I will take a hug now. Love you all!

Entertainment this week

T.V. - BRAVO TIME BITCHES this is my jam!

Movies - Watched this Movie Thursday night and oh boy, if I was in their shoes, I would just have died out there. Navy Seals are tough. I truly don’t know pain like these guys know pain.

Music - This is my 2025 Wrapped Playlist - ENJOY

Weather this week

Not that snowy but VERY COLD!

Need snuggles!

Sports this week

Last weeks lost against the Packers hurt. I hope it woken something up in the Bears to push stronger! I’m excited to watch them grow and hopefully push strong through to the playoffs.

Bulls/Blackhawks both young teams

And that’s all the N.E.W.S. For now.

Back to A.W.W.

December 14th Sunday Tumans Tap 5pm-12am

Come Celebrate me being single for 1 year! Come on in and flirt with me. Blow me kisses from across the bar.

December 15th Monday Tumans Tap 4pm-12am

I love Mondays at Tumans! Let me get you through this week!

December 16th Tuesday Tumans Tap 4pm-12am

COME GET SOME BABY!

December 17th Wednesday Tumans Tap 4pm-12am

ITS MY FRIDAY BABY!!! Come send me off right!

December 18th Thursday OFF

House Projects!

Still working on the second bdrm and turning that into my walk in closet.

December 19th Friday Tumans Tap 5pm-Close

Come on in! Also, lets Dance!

December 20th Saturday Tumans 5pm-Close

I am spending the day with my childhood friends! Its our Christmas time! Can’t wait to see all the little ones!

We are all going to watch the Bears game together and I cant wait!

We are getting Buff Joes! If you dont know what that is, its the best wings in the Chicagoland area! Downtown Evanston!

December 21st Sunday Tumans WILL BE CLOSED at 5pm

ITS OUR HOLIDAY PARTY!

We all worked hard and deserve a night off!

Can’t wait to party with all these guys!

What a great year! Looking forward to seeing you all on Monday!

Well that’s all for this week! Hope to see you sometime this week!